tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1940209088259004106.post2341810849535888067..comments2023-04-23T16:33:39.062-04:00Comments on K.T. Crowley: Waiting and My Wandering MindK.T. Crowleyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08211266985396588133noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1940209088259004106.post-31175342404294613022013-04-19T16:40:42.811-04:002013-04-19T16:40:42.811-04:00Thanks, everyone, for posting your comments, shari...Thanks, everyone, for posting your comments, sharing your fears and for wishing my husband and family well.<br /><br />I, too, struggle with the same things you 3 do, and it was quite comforting to see I'm not alone. Maybe we can create a fountain of youth? A friend of mine always says "You're only as old as you make yourself feel". I think there is some truth to that.<br /><br />As for great days in writing, I think for most none feel great until we get that much-needed validation that the struggle was all worth it. But if we give up, we'll never get that, so we can't give up (unless, of course, writing makes you miserable--then it's not great at all, no matter what).<br /><br /><br />Stick with me, and we'll stride forward together!<br />K.T. Crowleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08211266985396588133noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1940209088259004106.post-3180093008042658322013-04-15T01:48:56.474-04:002013-04-15T01:48:56.474-04:00K.T., I'm so glad to hear that your husband di...K.T., I'm so glad to hear that your husband did well in surgery and doesn't have whatever they thought he might. On to full recovery for him.<br />I'm afraid of everything--the dark, bugs, snakes, spiders, all the things that creep and slink, nuclear threats, pandemics, world hunger, the dwindling of global resources and the rise of global temperatures, Alzheimer’s. I’m afraid of the world my grandchildren will have to live in, of the lack of justice and compassion, the invasion of privacy, forced conformity, corporate greed, judicial dishonesty, radical extremism. Also of not leaving a legacy to my children and grandchildren that’s worth a damn. Maybe I can’t write after all. My good days are all behind me and none of them were great.<br />Thank you for the opportunity to let loose. Best wishes to your family as you all continue to put your lives back in order.<br />https://sharonboninpratt.wordpress.com/https://www.blogger.com/profile/15415820901947784566noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1940209088259004106.post-86882889524116612822013-04-14T10:28:55.925-04:002013-04-14T10:28:55.925-04:00Very happy to read that your husband's surgery...Very happy to read that your husband's surgery went well. My mother has had cancer twice in her life, and I've spent many a day and night terrified yet somehow hopeful in waiting rooms...Keep doing what you're doing. You're making it through and keeping strong, even if you don't feel it! Sharing with us allows us to send you healing energy. I hope you feel it!<br /><br />As far as fears go - well, I'm afraid of so much. But when it comes to my writing, for the first time in my life I felt a fear so powerful that I actually couldn't write. I felt in my heart that nothing I wrote, no story line, no character, no simple sentence was worth writing if it came from 'me'. I was afraid to believe in my own ability and gift as a writer. <br /><br />So i went with the fear flow. Let it take hold. Felt it. Wrestled with it. And finally, I was able to write in my journal. And then write a short poem. And then finally 'write' my way out of the part of the fear that was paralyzing me. Poetry helped me do this. <br /><br />I think my fear stems from one small but extremely powerful voice that says: you don't matter. <br /><br />this extends into my writing life and cripples my ability to create and trust a creative instinct that I know I was born with. That existed before this one little voice was able to have such power. <br /><br />And so...I've been able to write again but the only way i can is if i literally pump myself up with courage. Be as brave as I feel when writing - BEFORE i sit down to write. <br /><br />I'm thinking of getting a tattoo on my wrist that says 'brave writer'. <br /><br />Be well. Thank you for all you do for the writing community. Vanessa Shieldshttp://www.vanessashields.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1940209088259004106.post-41055925838083881252013-04-14T09:28:22.272-04:002013-04-14T09:28:22.272-04:00First, congratulations on your husband's succe...First, congratulations on your husband's successful surgery--wonderful news!!! :)<br /><br />Second, it is so strange, but I was thinking the exact thoughts you expressed about your "blind critique" idea earlier this week. I have no idea why I was even thinking about that, but I am really excited that you are going to try it out! :)<br /><br />My fears? Getting old(er), failing as a writer, not having any sort of decent career, just being a failure and a financial disaster. How do I face the fears? One day at a time, working to make my writing the best it can be. (Haven't really figured out the career--aside from writing--or the getting old part. lol)sgfnoreply@blogger.com